its been a long while, but i still feel it

i have not taken the time to post here in a long time, i apologize for that. i guess it just seemed like there were a lot of other things to give my attention to. but, i do realize that this place is a necessary release for me. i have seen that i need an opportunity to vent. lately, i have had many things to share, many situations that i think are worthy of a little rant. so here goes...

i am at a point where people fall into certain categories. there are some people that its clear they are surface. they say things, do things that are only as deep as their own skin, if even that deep. people who you think should have an understanding of you, a knowledge about your life, but that don't care enough to really pay attention. people who ask you over and over and over and over the same questions about yourself, not because they actually want the information, but because they think they are supposed to ask, because its what a person with actual depth would do. like when someone asked me every time i talked to him, on at least a weekly basis, when they asked if we knew what we were having with our second child, and i would tell him every time that we were having a little girl. that's not something you should have to ask maybe twice. if you are actually paying attention, actually caring, then i will give you a pass on maybe forgetting, but 8, 9, 15 or more times. its even worse when its your job to care, when that is part of what your supposed to be about.

its the same kind of person who i brought an idea to, something that really could have been beneficial to a lot of people. the idea was shot down, without any discussion. one year later, this person shares the idea with me, a brilliant idea, in his mind, something really important for me to do. its the same idea, the same worthless idea i had one year earlier. but you didn't even listen then. you don't care, you never did. don't fake it. don't put on the smiley, caring face. its not your real face, its not the real you. its your salesmen face, the one you put on to convince me that what your selling is worth something.

in my career i have come across a lot of personalities. and i have an opportunity to get to know a lot of people. i have always been a very good judge of character, i have always been able to tell the people that are actually who they say they are, and i have been able to tell the used car salesmen. the people who change themselves to make you feel comfortable. the problem is, they can't keep it up, they will reveal themselves sooner or later. its

--aaron

the relaunch

hey, its time to announce that i am back! i have taken a long hiatus, a lot has changed, but i still got stuff i need to say. so i am back. i will be posting a few times a week, so stay tuned for a new round of grievances!

--aaron